Poetry
Resentments
A Poem by Doug Parker
When the magic is gone,
raw, unexposed, drain of enthusiasm
like a switch clicking backwards,
emotions too fragile to continue this,
and you believe it’s true.
Even when you know it’s an excuse,
triggered by guilt or somebody else’s words, another’s poison,
you buy it because it gives you a way out, a way to take that gaping bite out
of your tiresome love
and you believe it’s true
And you don’t share it because
the ones you’d tell are all bad now,
holding secret thoughts, worse than yours
a feeling of awful relief glides through you
and you believe it’s true
Perfect immediate fixation on a hoax
becoming real and tight, alluring
as your thoughts mutate into a decision
to leave the light because your magnificent growth
seems weak and weary and worn out,
and you believe it’s true.
Now is the time to cast the choice in stone, the right
split-second of etching it into the cold, hard rock, when you know
you can drink the wine and suck the devil’s smoke
because that’s all you’re ever really worth,
and you believe it’s true.
All this, you believe is true
because your heart hurts and the fabric of your spirit is frayed
by a slight inequity with no meaning
and you’ve learned to look for meaning
so it goes against your new nature to find none
and this one’s so small you can’t even see its absence
but it’s way more than plenty to ruin you.
About the Author
Doug Parker is an award-winning published author living in Southern California. He is currently a Master of Arts degree candidate in Humanities and creative writing at Mount Saint Mary’s College in Los Angeles.
I found this to be a powerful message about how little it takes to throw us off balance.
Thanks for the good times….